I AM NOT JOKING!

I’ll still update here. No worries.

Once again, I feel like ranting. The song I’m listening to made me depressed. Okay, I just changed the song! I’m high again! WoooOOOhhhh!

Back to blogging, I’m searching for a proper dress. (I still want to wear a suit) Probably getting a dress? A cheap one because I know I won’t wear it again, unless if there’s a special occasion. Don’t call me a tomboy although I act like one. I’ve my reasons! I’ve scars on my arms and back due to rashes and I don’t feel confident when they’re exposed. Period. So…….. I’m hunting for a freaking one night stand dress!

Training tomorrow… I wonder if I’m fine or I’ll break down again. I wonder… neh mind, the grass on the other side is greener. I’m too lazy to carry on. Better post next time! Oh, I realized my previous post has quite a number of mistakes and to tell you the truth, I can’t be bothered with it!

I watch Supernatural every Saturday on MioTV and it’s like I’m addicted. I even forced my mother and Halibush to watch with me. Tinybush… she can’t be bothered with me even though I told her how handsome the lead actors were. I’m starting to believe she is not straight… if she was straight, Halibush and her would have starting making babies and start a family. Then they’re start their mini Chua family… mini babies start popping out…. Halibush will be a father… awwww. Halibush shares the same sentiments as me. OUT OF POINT… as I was saying, Supernatural is a hella good show. because Jensen Ackles is in it! I’m kidding but it’s true. My mom likes Jensen too… he is like, damn manly! Oh my god… I’ll be straight for you, Jensen. Hahaha. Anyways, I LIKE TAKING TO MYSELF… AND THIS SHOWS I’M A RARE SPECIMEN.

Bought Beyonce’s and Ne-yo’s album. Awesome, I’m telling you. Can’t touch this, duh na na na~ Damn nice song by MC Hammer. Hahahahaha! I’m in love with Whatever You Like by TI. He is super hot! You can have whatever you like~ ~… yeah, in my dreams. Get a life, Rachel.

I’m not good enough for the team and I’m not good enough to go on court. I’m just not good enough. Next week onwards, I’ll be very busy with the band concert. Rehearsals in the morning till noon, probably missing out trainings as well. Guess I’ll use that time to get my mind of selections and negative thoughts. Its weighing me down… in a more exaggerating way, its almost the weight of the world on my shoulders. Hahahaha. Okay, I can still laugh abt it. -.- Yeah, so I’ll TRY to be a good and HOPEFULLY, pleasant looking emcee for that event. HAVE TO WEAR DRESS…MAKE UP… I FEEL GAY… I was hoping I can wear a suit. This is a Giorgio Armani suit and that’s Beyonce! WOAH!

Okay, I just completed ranting. Goodnight!

All I need is you to understand me better.

You think I’m fine, you think we’re good but we aren’t.
This is what is it about?
When the sun sets and shine away… if that’s what you want.

“Why?”

“I played like crap yesterday.”

“Rachel, what doesn’t kill us make us stronger.”

Swear my father is the best! He is such a good motivater. Thank you, dad! I’ll take yesterday’s game as a lesson. I’ll come back faster, harder and even stronger. I’ll prove her* wrong! I know Halibush, Tinybush, my father, my mother and my brother is supporting me. I ASSUME AT LEAST. Hahaha. GO RACHEL! YOU’RE UNBEATABLE AND YOU’RE PHENOMENAL.

I baked out of boredom again. I made a small chocolate cake frosted with Ganache and I piped roses to decorate it. It turned out fine and I’m proud of it! This is my first time succeeding in a decorating a cake. Other times, the cake would be either loop- sided or look weird. Hahaha. So… this is how it turned out!

I just put the “Happy Birthday” sign for fun. Hahahah! And again, I’m proud of my work!

Eating Ikea’s meatballs. WOOAH. Night!

I don’t want to spend all my time weighing myself down.
I am Happiness, I am Cheerfulness, I am Coolness, I am Carefree, I am Confidence and I am Positiveness.

No one is ever going to take that from you. I am me.

For R

I’m extremely tired! And mom said if I want to get two more hamsters, I need to find a space for them. So, I’m going to start searching for a space now! Goodnight.

Saw R this morning and gave him the cupcakes. He likes it and I’m glad. And I finally got to see him.

I feel like getting two Roborovski hamsters. They’re the smallest and fastest hamsters and of course, they’re very cute too. The maximum size they can grow to is about the size of our tumb. Small huh? Halibush and Tinybush is bigger and fatter than my tumb by so much! PIGS.

Beyonce’s new album is coming out is 8 days! Woahhhhh. Her album is called “Sasha Fierce”, I think. I’m a huge fan of Beyonce so I’m getting it.

Game on Thursday and training on Wednesday, I hope she will be down. Have confidence and you’ll do well. Don’t let the game rule your head because I rule the game.